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Missing You Already




A journal page done after Margot's diagnosis, where I "spilled" stream of consciouness writing, layering the words overtop each other, then returned to pick out pattern and symbol.

Margot has been my biggest fan since we met over 13 years ago. As a gallery owner, she worked her tail off to promote and sell my work. As a fellow artist, we hashed through all sorts of artsy things together while trying out new ideas. And as a friend, she relentlessly kicked my butt into gear on pretty much everything.

"Just shut up and paint," she would tell me when I was over analyzing and trying to drag her into my mess. She knew painting would provide the clarity I needed.

Margot passed away early Tuesday morning after a brief illness. The last two weeks I've been repeatedly rocked to my core - first with her diagnosis, then her move to hospice, and now with saying goodbye. She was always so damned matter of fact about things, but did she have to tackle dying with the same sort of practicality?

I know she can hear me. And I see her looking over her shoulder, one eyebrow cocked, a wry smile touching her lips. And I hear her laughing.

Perhaps I should just shut up and paint today. 
Please keep Margot's family in your thoughts - they are even more wrung out than myself,
Kim 
ksantini@turtledovedesigns.com

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  1. CAROL HOPPER -- A PAINTER'S JOURNAL6:11 PM

    Your entry stuns me. It is so heartfelt and beautifully written. You were a wonderful friend. I miss her for you too.

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    1. Kimberly Kelly Santini10:10 PM

      thanks, Carol. Margot was pretty incredible and I was very lucky to count her a friend.

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